Home Alone 2: Lost in New York

Home Alone 2: Lost in New York

Kevin McCallister (Macaulay Culkin) is back! But this time he’s in New York City with enough cash and credit cards to turn the Big Apple into his own playground! But Kevin won’t be alone for long. The notorious Wet Bandits, Harry and Marv (Joe Pesci and Daniel Stern), still smarting from their last encounter with Kevin, are bound for New York too, plotting a huge holiday heist. Kevin’s ready to welcome them with a battery of booby traps the bumbling bandits will never forget!

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The Mortal Instruments: City of Bones; City of Ashes; City of Glass; City of Fallen Angels; City of Lost Souls

The Mortal Instruments: City of Bones; City of Ashes; City of Glass; City of Fallen Angels; City of Lost Souls

Don’t miss The Mortal Instruments: City of Bones, soon to be a major motion picture in theaters August 2013.

The first five books in the #1 New York Times bestselling Mortal Instruments series, now available in a collectible paperback boxed set.

Enter the secret world of the Shadowhunters with this handsomely packaged boxed set that includes City of Bones, City of Ashes, City of Glass, City of Fallen Angels, and City of Lost Souls. The Mortal Instruments series has more than 20

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Lost In Time (A Blue Bloods Novel)

Lost In Time (A Blue Bloods Novel)

The stakes have never been higher for the young Blue Bloods of Manhattan. After their brief yet beautiful bonding ceremony in Italy, Schuyler Van Alen and Jack Force depart for Egypt, desperate to find the elusive Gate of Promise before Jack must face his twin, Mimi, for a blood trial. A blood trial that only one of them can survive. But everything Schuyler thought she knew about the gate turns out to be a lie, and they soon find themselves ensnared in a deadly battle against the demon-born. Sch

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I’ve lost count of the times that I’ve been here…

I’ve lost count of the times that I’ve been here…
Image by ashley.adcox
Mixed states. For weeks on end. It’s been exhausting. I’ve slept entire days away (literally), and I’ve gone days without sleeping. My days and weeks are blending and blurring. I couldn’t tell you when I last woke up. …I just flat out have no idea. That’s a really freaking weird state of mind to be in.

I’ve simply stopped trying to care. No more taking initiative for me…I’m just letting things happen as they will. That sounds crappy, I’m sure…but thus far I guess it’s been working out okay. Picked up a few photo gigs, so that should bring in a bit of money, therefor removing the guilt trip of wasting my life and whatnot. That’s the good thing about photography…I can make as much money in a single afternoon as I made in a week of working part time. Granted you throw editing into the mix, but I never mind editing…it’s just the part of having to be out in the world that wears me down.

The vast majority of March has been a giant blur due to the mixed states. I’m teetering between highs and lows- and constantly being ping-ponged between the two. Needless to say, it’s quite confusing…thus why I just stopped trying and gave over to it. After years of doing this, I’ve finally realized that it’s a lot easier to just shut your eyes and let it do what it will, as opposed to trying to fit yourself into some preconceived box when it’s just not gonna work.

I’ve reached the point where I’ve let go enough to where I don’t care if I’m good or bad. If I’m good…life is good, of course I don’t mind. But the lows have gotten so low that nothing from the "real world" applies anymore…surrendering gives you a whole new perspective. You reach a point where you’re so low that you no longer care that you’re low. The fact that you were ever NOT low becomes irrelevant- you no longer try to climb out of it- you don’t care, nor do you have the energy…so you just surrender to the state you’re in…I think it was the climbing that caused the suffering all along, really. There’s something decidedly more comfortable about that state now than there has been in years past. It’s quiet, and very still. My mood/life is total shit, but I’ve become so internal at that point that nothing in the world phases me. My existence has nothing at all to do with the world’s existence. It’s horrific, but it’s blissful.

In the mixed states, when I’ve had good days/hours this month, I’ve had REALLY good days. And I really feel it…I’m thankful for it- I’m not taking it for granted…I recognize in that moment how lucky I am to be having such a great moment. I leave the house. shocker.

When it’s bad…everything just kind of goes to shit for a few hours/days. I’m confused. I lose perspective of time. After a few days, I suddenly learn that it’s been raining all week, and this is a total shock to me- like after 4 days of rain, I had absolutely no idea that it had rained. I don’t leave the house. I don’t do anything. I have no idea how my time passes…I leave myself, in a way.

Balancing those two polar opposites is exhausting- Needless to say, I’m ready to get out of the mixed state area and just settle on a side…I don’t remember it ever lasting this long- I don’t remember ever changing so much, so many times, in such a short period of time.

Surprisingly, I actually have uploaded a bit to Flickr over the last few weeks…but then I always end up not making it public. I’m finding that I think 95% of the stuff I do is too worthless to post…and the 5% that IS worth something ends up being too raw to post. You reach the point of questioning why you do anything.

It’s like conversations.

The only conversations that are ever worth having are the ones that you could never have.

anything worth saying probably shouldn’t be said publicly. Art worth creating should never be shown. half the time I feel that in order to live, I would need to live a life that isn’t worth living. The only conversations that I’m able to have are the ones not worth having. The only conversation worth having is the one I’ll never have. So do I simply not speak? such is life.

what good is art, what good are thoughts, if you can never engage the world with them? And yet honesty becomes less honest when shared.

We crash, crash, crash
With nothing left to burn
We try to turn the tables
We have turned
Covering the cracks
Won’t make them disappear
I’ve lost count of the times that
we’ve been here

What’s the weight,
name the price I must pay

Cos I don’t wanna be the same anymore
Gotta find what I’m here for
But it’s so hard to change
When life gets in the way, yeah

-Gary Go: Life Gets In The Way

I was gonna play the whole "bold the really good/relevant lyrics" game…but I realized that 99% of the song was bolded…so…yea.

Erupt again ignore the pill
And I won’t let it show
Sacrifice the tortures
Orchestral tear cash-flow

Increase delete escape defeat
It’s all that matters to you
Cotton case for an iron pill
Distorted eyes
when everything is clearly dying

Burn my knees and
Burn my knees and
Burn my knees and
E-motion sickness
Addict with no heroin
E-motion sickness
Distorted eyes
when everything is clearly dying

Burn my knees and
Burn my knees and pray
Burn my knees and
Burn my knees and pray
[All my friends say]
Get up get up get up get up
Get up get up get up
Won’t you stop my pain

E-motion sickness
[To idle with an idol]
Addict with no heroin
Good things will pass
It helps with excess access
Lessons learnt

E-motion sickness
[Lost no friendship]
[Corrosive head pollution]
Lessons learnt
-Silverchair: Emotion Sickness

^If you can’t appreciate the goodness of Silverchair, just go ahead and stop listening to music now, because you’ll never have good taste.

The Lost World of Genesis One: Ancient Cosmology and the Origins Debate

The Lost World of Genesis One: Ancient Cosmology and the Origins Debate

In this astute mix of cultural critique and biblical studies, John H. Walton presents and defends twenty propositions supporting a literary and theological understanding of Genesis 1 within the context of the ancient Near Eastern world and unpacks its implications for our modern scientific understanding of origins. Ideal for students, professors, pastors and lay readers with an interest in the intelligent design controversy and creation-evolution debates, Walton’s thoughtful analysis unpacks sel

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Weird and lost…

Weird and lost…
Image by h.koppdelaney
Where do I come from? Where do I go?
What shall I do?
I lost my way…


Falls Psychologie interessiert:

Thema: Wie löse ich meine Verwirrung auf?
Psychologische Ebene – mystische Ebene.
Verwirrung. Unwissenheit,


Niemand sieht die Welt wie sie wirklich ist, es sei denn er sieht sich selbst. Kannst du behaupten, dass du dich kennst? Kennst du die Wurzeln deines Seins?
Weißes Licht bricht sich in alle Farben. Aus einer einzigen Quelle entspringen alle Farben der Palette. Warum sollte Blau Rot davon überzeugen, Blau werden zu wollen? Doch du kannst dich selbst nur als Rot erkennen, wenn du dich über eine Vielzahl anderer Menschen spiegeln lässt.
Doch hüte dich im Gegenzug davor, jemandem von deiner Sicht der Welt überzeugen zu wollen. Blau kann nicht Rot werden. Der Versuch, den anderen Rot zu machen, verstrickt dich in Kämpfe. Diese sorgen für ein hohes Maß an Emotionen und diese wiederum haben die Neigung, deinen Geist abzudunkeln und verwirrt sein zu lassen.
Die Klarheit des Geistes wächst proportional mit der Abnahme der emotionalen Motivationskräfte. Ist die Klarheit des Geistes erreicht, strebt der Yogi die Harmonisierung seiner Gefühlswelt an.
„Der Geist ist der Himmel, die Gefühle sind die Erde.“ Dieser bildlichen Sprache bediente sich ein Alchemist. Und wenn er über die Erlösung aus der Verwirrung des Lebens sprach, verwendete er das Bild der Vereinigung der Gegensätze. Sonne und Mond werden in einem Zeichen zusammengebracht. Analog zu diesem kann jeder Zeit das Yin und Yang Zeichen gesetzt werden, denn auch dieses zeigt die Vereinigung der Gegensätze.
Die gegeneinander kämpfenden gegensätzlichen Prinzipien, deren Streit für alle Verwirrungen verantwortlich ist, können versöhnt oder geschlichtet werden.
Die gegenseitige Anerkennung von Intellekt und Emotion, von Geist und Körper oder eben auch von Himmel und Erde, erlöst das Bewusstsein aus diesem Konflikt, Der Geist hat nicht mehr die Tendenz, der weltlichen Existenz zu fliehen und der Körper muss den Geist nicht mehr durch Schmerzen in die Wirklichkeit des Lebens zwingen. Der Geist bleibt freiwillig und der Körper lässt den Geist frei.
Die Welt, das Leben, der Alltag, das ist die Verkörperung des Geistes. In der Negativität ist diese Verkörperung sehr unangenehm. Negativität entsteht durch Kampf. Durch ein auf Wettbewerb eingestelltes Denken werden Kampf und Negativität forciert. Daher empfehlen alle Religionen Gewaltverzicht.
Durch den Verzicht auf Auseinandersetzung, Gewalt und Rache, kann sich das Bewusstsein aus der Illusion befreien. Diese Befreiung gleicht dem Erwachen aus einem Traum. Die Negativität ist ein „böser Traum“, sie ist das, was in bildlicher Sprache ausgedrückt die Hölle ist.
Um aus der Verwirrung und der Unwissenheit der höllischen Leidenschaften aussteigen zu können, bedarf es der Abkühlung der Emotionen durch die Ausbildung des intellektuellen Verstehens und der Durchdringung der Gefühlswelt mit dem Verstand.
Diese Durchdringung geschieht mit der Hilfe eines Konzeptes.
Ein Konzept ist wie ein Boot mit dem man von einer Seite zur anderen kommen kann. Der Geist lernt, sich selbst zu verstehen. Sobald ich meine Farbe aus dem Spektrum des Lichtes erkenne, kann ich mich aus den unbewussten Kämpfen lösen und Blau einfach so lassen, wie es ist.
Der Übergriffigkeit von Blau auf meine Farbe kann ich mich durch das geschickte Mittel des Rückzugs erwehren. Wenn ich helfe, dass sich Blau selbst erkennt, wird seine Übergriffigkeit sich auflösen. Er wird ein sich selbst schadendes Verhalten zugunsten seines inneren Glücks aufgeben und eine gemeinsame Zeit der Harmonie zwischen Yin und Yang genießen.
Wenn die Gegensätze miteinander im Frieden schwingen, dann erreicht das Zeichen von Yin und Yang seinen harmonischen Ausdruck, den es im Allgemeinen hat.
Das Yin und Yang Zeichen drückt aus meiner Sicht den idealen Zustand eines Yogi aus. Yogis sind Menschen, die auf dem Weg sind, die Gegensätze zu vereinen. Sind die Gegensätze vereint, ist der Yogi kein Yogi mehr. Mit was sollte er sich noch identifizieren?
Die Nicht-Identifikation ist die endgültige Auflösung der Verwirrung. ;-))


Digital Art – own resources


Tomb of the Lost (Peter Dennis 1)

Tomb of the Lost (Peter Dennis 1)

620 pages. In four parts. These books need to be read in order.

Tomb of the Lost is an action/adventure novel that spans 2300 years.

Babylon, Persia 323bc.

On a bed a man lays dying. Alexander the great, King, the Lion of Macedon has a mysterious fever. He became king at twenty, dying at thirty three, having conquered the known world. Following his death his General and friend Ptolemy takes the body and inters it into a magnificent tomb in Alexandria, Egypt. The very cit

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The Honeymooners Lost Episodes. the Ralph, Alice, Ed and Trixie You’Ve Waited 30 Years to See

The Honeymooners Lost Episodes. the Ralph, Alice, Ed and Trixie You’Ve Waited 30 Years to See

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Lost Lake

Lost Lake

From the author of New York Times bestseller Garden Spells comes a beautiful, haunting story of old loves and new, and the power of the connections that bind us forever… The first time Eby Pim saw Lost Lake, it was on a picture postcard. Just an old photo and a few words on a small square of heavy stock, but when she saw it, she knew she was seeing her future. That was half a life ago. Now Lost Lake is about to slip into Eby’s past. Her husband George is long passed. Most of her demand

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Cluny: In Search of God’s Lost Empire

Cluny: In Search of God’s Lost Empire

One thousand years ago, the French abbey of Cluny was the hub of one of the most powerful empires of the Middle Ages and the spiritual heart of Europe. Cluny was a Benedictine monastery in Burgundy, its church a breathtaking structure of towers, roofs, walls, and windows almost 600 feet long and 100 feet high—a true wonder of the world. Reconstructing the lives, beliefs, and ambitions of Cluny’s countless monks and legendary abbots, such as Hugh the Great and Peter the Venerable, this book dis

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